October 2010
my friends
my friends are the most important thing in my life.
they are supportive. fantastic. lovely. and amazing.
i love them so astoundingly much that its unfathomable.
i have truly found which people are important in my life and which ones i need. and then the others that needed to walk out of it.
thank you all. for loving me unconditionally.
<3
September 2010
my bag?
wellll….i use my cross country bag so you would find:
a pair of running shoes
extra socks
a sports bra
my wallet
my iPod
Stride gum that donnie bought me
Pride and Prejudice with a highlighter and pen.
dear mom and dad,
honestly, our family is dysfunctional and crazy and i dont know how we dont kill each other.
but.
our family is filled with so much love. and support. and even though we want to murder each other most of the time, its the good times that we have that help us get through.
we are cynical and sarcastc, but thats how we love each other.
thank you for helping me become who i am...
something you crave for a lot.
attention.
what makes me different?
well…
im a vegan.
im lactose and gluten intolerant.
running is something i actually LOVE.
im proud of being smart and show it off.
im bilingual.
i say what i want and what i feel.
i dont feel that i need a relationship to be a complete person.
well. i have a few nicknames
Gertrude/gertie - this is a fairly long story but its from my best friend sarah. and she is laquisha. we are gerquisha.
PJ - from swimming. my last name is sapieja…so PJ just kind of fit i suppose.
Juh - mr. schimmelfenyg gave me this one. because sapieja was too long for him to say?
Sissy - cenie calls me this..or at least she used to when she was little.
...
plans|goals|dreams
i plan to be successful no matter what i do.
my goals are to get into NYU, UCLA, or Stanford to pursue my dream of becoming an editor. to live in the city. and love my life.
my dreams consist of someone who will make me unequivocally happy.
iPod shuffle me.
dont trust me - 3oh!3
moceanu - bayside
his girl friday - the academy is…
it ends tonight - all american rejects
for pete’s sake - yellowcard
do better - say anything
kiss and sell - the maine
whoa - we the kings
the razor - head automatica
timberwolves at new jersey - taking back sunday
i’d hate to be you when people find out what this song is about - mayday parade
...
dear you,
you were my best friend. my brother. but i guess once she came around i didnt matter anymore. what took seven years to build, was ruined, torn down in an hour. you messed up your priorities. or i suppose they just changed. i no longer was anywhere near the top. i miss everything we had, and no matter what, i know it will never be the same. i hope she makes you happy enough to keep you...
i found tumblr because of some peoples postings on facebook.
oh social networking..how you comingle.
i made one…because i like the idea of having a web page completely devoted to whatever i want to say or share. its the epitome of me, and i have nothing to hide behind. (:
Moods and music vary directly. unlike some stupid math problems that we learn about that are indirect….yeah so here it is.
when i am: i listen to -
happy - folky indie music like edward sharpe, chairlift, vampire weekend, etc.
sad - no ones gonna love you - band of horses.
bored - whatever’s on.
hyped - bumpin rap. especially big boi, solja, roscoe dash, etc.
mad - whatever fits...
pride
my task for today is to post what i am proud of from the past few days. well nothing monumental or miraculous as happened to me..but i have reasons to be proud.
i ran with the second fastest group at cross country today.
i haven’t been snarky or outspoken in classes.
i’ve made new friends.
nothing huge. but proud i am.
the small things count.
goals
short term goals for this month.
figure things out with steve.
figure things out with new guy (we’ll call him ben).
lose ten more pounds.
not fail AP english.
i think thats a pretty solid goal list.
my favorite super hero is elastigirl.
yeah i know…not really a superhero because shes not in comics…but shes in a superhero movie. so it counts.
she’s strong. and awesome. and kick ass. and sooo independent.
she doesnt need anyone else, but she chooses to have a family and loved ones.
shes not a douche. shes not self glorified.
shes very real…in retrospect.
habits
well. i have a few completely unnecessary habits that i wish i didnt.
biting the skin on my thumbs when im nervous or upset.
biting my lips when i think.
running away whenever things get serious with a guy.
these are all quite problematic and i would probably be much better off without them…
day two
okay. the explanation behind my tumblr name.
well…its supposed to be kind of ironic. because it IS my life, but sometimes i feel like im on the outside looking in…so its not my life, but just one that i get to watch.
then sometimes, i feel like i dont have a life = the irony. im always busy and never have time to just slow down and look back and live.
my so called life.
